going emo

so I had a followup with the surgeon today…the one I didn’t know I had until the She-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named said I did & scheduled it for me.

They’re still considering surgery. They want to do surgery, to “clean out the adhesions”. Never mind that for the past few days I’ve been fine and that surgery there just causes MORE adhesions & scar tissue.

Trying to keep in mind that just because he’s a surgeon does not give him any control over me or my choices. And that I can refuse that route. I’ve only had surgery on this in the past when it got to the double-over-in-pain & throwing-up-teeth-&-toenails stage — ie, a full block, not a partial obstruction. But I’m still breaking down because DAMMIT, I DON’T WANT THIS. I WANT THIS CRAP TO STOP HAPPENING.

I see the MD again on wednesday for a full physical exam.